I Am Sunshine

somedays i wake dark

nestled in the remnants of yesterday’s hanger ons

plaited around my body’s familiar posture paused

the tracks of unfinished thoughts and aggravated sores

waiting still to be packed sorted placed

it’ll take a minute or a thousand

to let the sun in

a morning’s glory recoiled to shadow

refusing the sunrise’s meddling gilt

an exasperated appeal for just five more fucking minutes

...please

somedays the dark is all i want

to remain unseen untouched

left alone to sleep and let all this good doing die

to find my own way out these darkened chambers

at my own ready

it seems unfair

to have been named sunshine so long ago

to be sought out perpetually and endlessly by the light

fated to have even my darkest features

forever tainted gold